Growing pains...

So it's been forever and a day since my last entry in the blog world. I find blogging a bit difficult to keep up with because there are so many I love to read, so I find myself getting overwhelmed and not reading or writing any at all. I know, strange right? You would think I could just pick a few to read each night when I get a free moment or update my own for that matter, but I find myself on Facebook instead or messing around in Lightroom, editing my pictures. It's been an interesting summer, pretty uneventful, but interesting still. Life with 2 three yr. olds continues to keep me on my toes and challenges me everyday to want to be a better mom. Some days I feel like I fail miserably while other days I feel like at the end of the day I can lay my head on my pillow and not have a thousand thoughts race through my head of what I wish I would have done or said differently. I still constantly have to remind myself that I will for sure make mistakes (everyday!) and just pray that God covers them, just do my best and let Him take care of the rest! I find 3 to be some what of a difficult age, more so then 2....at least for me it has been. Strong wills, sassy mouths and more time outs then ever! Everything baby is behind us now except for pull-ups at bedtime, oh and....did I mention they are still sleeping in cribs? I know, I know....get them in big boy and girl beds already! But....they don't try and climb out of their cribs and it's so nice to know that when we put them to bed, they are going to stay there, sooooo, we just leave them in cribs for now! Actually, every once in a while we will ask them if they want to sleep in a big bed and be in their own rooms and each time the answer is "NO!!!! we want our cribs"!!! I think it's because they know when we do this, they will not be sleeping in the same room anymore because it's not big enough for two twin beds. They really do quite well in the same room, so for now we are leaving it alone, at least until they turn 4 which is just in a few months! ((((sigh)))).....I feel like I am sort of in this place where I need to do some growing myself. My status on FB last week was something like..."I am feeling a bit out of sorts lately"....it's not a real fun feeling to have, but I do believe God will lead me thru it. I want to grow in my relationship with Him and it may require a lot of changing along the way, so I have to prepare myself for that. I have a tendency to shut down when life is too much for me when I should just run into the arms of my Creator. So I want to grow. I want to put this list I have created in my head, of who I want to be, to good use and quit saying "maybe one day..." Anyway....enough about me, Lilly and Asher are going to be 4 in just 5 short months, how is this possible?! Oh and it shows that they are getting older when I hear things like "it's no fair"! or "he started it" and "it's your fault"! Sometimes I think they need a break from mommy and mommy needs a little break from them as well...would love for them to go to preschool at least one day a week, but it's just not in the cards for us right now. (cards meaning budget ;) We'll see. I adore them more then ever. My favorite part of the day would have to be right before we put them to bed we all 4 snuggle up in our bed and we let them watch a little nick jr. while we cuddle. I wouldn't trade that moment for the world no matter how completely squished Brad and I are and ready to fall off the bed...after the snuggle time we usually read a story and pray and recently we have been asking them what their favorite part of the day was. The answers are so sweet and always make Brad and I smile. Here are a few recent photos of the little darlings.